yoz.. early in the morning came in n blog.. lolx... actually, should sae i came in to complaint.... here's the story...

Yesterdae was readin someone blog.. perhaps he nv expect me to read ba.. but wat i read reali disappoint me a lot... He written so many things there that he nv ever told me abt... or should i sae, he hides from me?? no idea... if he needs to choose between that ger n me at that point of time, he can tell me straight away... honestly, i long forgotten did i asked him for a patch at that time or he did... but it doesn't matter le.. even if i did, he can juz tell me he like another ger le... i nv was lack of guy... but at his blog.. he mention abt 3 gers goin for him... n he is choosin.. for god sake.. i wun juz stand there n let ppl choose... yes... i did complaint to him how Gerald treated me.. but then so wat?? it doesn't show i'm interested in him... i treated him as a fren that understand me... nvm... wat more... realise that is he n that ger can't work out that's why he patch wif me... now i finally understand why he treated me so badly after we patch back... aren't i a fool?? hai~ to think i trust him... he sae he can't forget certain thing that me n gerald did... but did he has a rite to sae me?? after all, gerald did not break us up... a one year plus relationship.. if i can juz let go, he should do some thinkin le... i'm not someone that can let go easily... but if i did, there is certain things that makes me give up.... He sae he was in depression... he hurted himself.... but me?? claim that he love me... but how did his family think of me?? think that i was juz after his money... for god sake... i was only 14 at that time... reali did love me?? well... surprise... the song.. that i thought is ours... but then?? he is repeating that song for his gf now... lolx... aren't i a fool to only realise all these after 2 years? to think i still trusted him so much till now... I AM NOT A BACKUP TYRE!!!!!!!!!

Bloody hell... for 2 years le... now that i noe the true... much less to sae... he been hidin things from his current gf now... things that i noe... then wat rite does he has to sae she broke his trust n need her to mend it?? he lied to her n juz that she doesn't noe doesn't mean that he nv broke her trust...

i always thought of him as someone that love me the most in the world... but we aren't fated... but rite now, i doubt that he reali love me as much as he claim... he didn't wanna let go is plainly be'coz he regretted nt doin his best for our relationship at that time.. that's why... my 2 sis have always been rite abt him... he is not worth my tears... not at all...

he always sae that james didn't reali love me... now, i see juz the oppo... perhaps james reali nv love me b4.. i have no idea abt that... but he?? he claimed he love me the most.... but then i find out juz the oppo... he is juz another despo guy... why am i so stupid?? he sae james hurt me most... he??? at least james is honest enough... he?? why wun he juz admit that he treated me badly too... he lost his frens??? me??? i given up so many of my guy frens... i almost lost my 2 sis as well lor... i 2 timed him?? he nv??? LIAR LIAR LIAR!!! it is nt a good feelin to be lied to??? well... then how cum he has the rite to lie to another person?? even when james 2-timed me... he was honest... he????? argh.......................

no matter wat... hope his gf now wun end up findin so many things as me... if u ever read this blog, juz to let u noe... dun bother to contact me... if u think i'm unreasonable... then be it.. i dun even wanna remind as fren wif u... n be honest wif ur ger... if u r reali happy wif her, on valentine dae, u wun sms me le... to true!!!! ciao~
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