honestly, this post is for me only... those that do not wan to noe abt me, dun need to read... ppl that already noe me, u may dun bother to read...

when in 2003, aug 25, i fallen in love wif a guy that i met... our relationship starts at amk mac... throughout the first few mths, he stood by me... when jo start to threaten me n fan me... he was there to support me... he was there to hug me whenever i cry, to make me laugh when i'm sad... times pass by fast... i brought him to meet my parents n he brought me to meet his parents... like any other young couple, they didn't agree to our relationship... especially my mum... she was nagging at me 24/7... we didn't give up... we still continue, hoping for a dae they will accept... 2 to 3 months pass... i started to feel that we are incompatible... our character n hobbies, every single other couple had the same interest, while for us,we dun have... everydae was spent in the arcade n me waiting for him to finish his game of ID n pool or billard... everydae after sch i was there waiting... n i was suppose to be havin o level that year... moreover, i skipped classes juz hopin for more time together... soon, i start to feel tire of the relationship le... i requested to break... but he asked me not to.. sayin he will change... time passes by soon... nothin changes... but i only keep fallin deeper for him... we start to quarrel soon... abt a ger Sarah... a ger that asked for his number... w/o tellin her that he got gf, he juz gave her... even lie to me.... when i happen to find out, my heart broke so much that when i was working, i sat there crying... i start to go out wif another guy... when i request to break again, he asked me not to... he then went to buy a couple ring... hopin that i will give this relationship a new start... i did... things went smoothly for months... he even came down to my workplace juz to pei me eat lunch... those were the sweetest dae i ever had... but happiness dun last... we start to quarrel over small little things... feelin start to fade... then this ger came... Karen... he dumped me for her when he only noe her for 5 daes... that nite, i almost die... but i didn't... my heart juz broke into so many pieces but i didn't give up.... i went to beg him for a patch... but he dun wan... at nite, due to some reason, we patch back le... the next dae, then i realise he was still in a relationship wif karen... i was being two time... soon they broke up... but then our relationship became so unstable... finally, we want to break again.... but at that time, we break n patch for so many times, feelin fade even more... finally, that dae came... he want to break up.. sayin he dun noe whether he reali love me or juz wan to have sex.... as a ger that given up so much juz for him... can u imagine the hurt i felt?? lolx... am one foolish ger... that fallen for such a guy...

this decision is make on sat... when me n dear broke up... that nite, i was thinkin... is he worth it for me to give up on dear?? no matter how many times i ask myself, the ans is still NO... since that nite, my whole mind was juz thinkin abt dear... no one else... i did so much things that hurt dear... i'm such a cruel person... so bitch... from that nite, i decided to let go... to forget... in my life, there is no one name james... that past is erase... this will be the last time i talk abt him... no more... honestly, i'm startin to hate him...

dear, sorry for all that i did... thank for givin me a chance again.. thanx for loving me n not givin up on me... thank for givin up so much juz for me... from now onwards, u will be the only guy in my heart... i love u...

yesterdae i spent it wif dear dear... we were thinkin of our children name... chinese name not confirm leh... but guy will be call antony and ger will be call christina.. erm... like wat i told val juz now, there wun be anymore guys in my life... from now onwards, i will settle down le... there will only be dear dear... no one else...

k la... dun blog le... ciao...
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