morning... juz reach back from breakfast... lolx... 30 mins break.. lolx.. anyway, let's see how's my weekend.. erm.. fridae went to take test date for basic theory... then spend the dae wif dear dear... then went home at around 9++... at around 10++ sleep le.. lolx...

sat... went to meet dear dear at 2pm... didn't go teach tuition cause sore throat n coughin... then we went down to eat... left amk around four?? erm... reach bugis around four++... didn't go bugis street cause that dae a lot of ppl... very de sian... then around 6++, we went down to atrium... erm.. finally saw Channon kor kor.. so long nv see him le.. end up we stayed there till 7++.. wanted to go cine de... but then after we eat finish le i too tire to walk there le.. lolx... end up take train home.. then reach hougang mall i took bus home.. went to sleep only at 12++... cause was on the phone wif dear dear after he went home.. hee hee...

sun... went to tampines there to pray... after that went back AMk to meet dear dear... took 72 and change to bus 136... god... 136 keep turning n turning... took 45 mins to reach Amk from hougang... that was the longest bus journey for me from hougang to amk... then pei dear dear go eat... then went to xin tian di.. after that went to buy VCD to dear dear hse to watch.. but b4 watchin, i fall asleep again... lolx... till 7++ den wake up.. lolx... 10++ go home.. 12++ sleep...

was wondering, wat if one dae dear dear realise him dun reali love me?? i mean, the more people u get in contact wif, the more things u will noe.. dear dear dun reali have a lot of girl frens.. mayb in future when he gets in contact wif more gers, he may realise that he dun reali love me?? when a couple quarrel n break up, there shouldn't be a question abt whether can he find a new gf anot.. if this question is there, is very de weird lor.. makes me feel that dear juz being wif me because he got no confident to find a new one.. not because he reali love me.. i dunno wat the hell am i thinkin anymore... yesterdae i may look fine.. but am i reali fine?? my mind was thinkin.. thinkin so much.. but i didn't tell him.. cause he will juz tell me dun think too much.. hai~ honestly, i reali got no confident anymore.. frens sae that i quite nice lookin.. but then am i?? if i reali am, then why is it that dear will still look at another ger?? i mean, it is a guy nature.. but then rite in front of their gf?? not weird?? hai~ wat's the point of lookin at gers when he can't have them?? hai~ *wondering.. juz how long i nv reali look at guys le... expect for the one at sch... but outside?? i dun...*

hai~ at some point of time, i reali feel so tire n helpless in this relationship... honestly, if dear dear n i reali break up, i think i will be lost... noe that i reali love dear... but then, sometime, i juz feel that something is missing in our relationship.. but i dunno wat is missing.. hai~ i reali wanna marry dear dear... cause i feel that he is the one for me.. but then i doubt i am the one for him.. hai~ nowaday i keep having this thought that if me n dear dear can get marry now, then we shouldn't need to worry abt anything else le...

k la.. i will stop bloggin here le.. got to start work le.. take care... ciao~
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