halo... happy new year to all my frens... hope that a new year represents a new start... remember... no matter how bad last year had been... it's over... so juz smile and everythin will be ok... hee hee...

let's look at my new year... oh... forgot to take pic of my new year clothes... but doesn't matter anyway... lolx... 1st dae... spent it at my uncle hse... then went over to dear dear hse... n i actually fall asleep at his hse... lolx... can't believe it.. then went back to uncle hse for dinner... n my bro jio dear to play MJ... stayed there till 10++... then dad drove dear home...

2nd dae... went to my grandma hse... ate n sit there like a rock?? lolx... dear joined me around one++.. lolx... then my cousins came... n they start playin wif my hair... yeah... lame rite?? lolx... left there around 3++.. went dear de grandma hse... again.. i sat there watchin tv... till 6++ then went to eat dinner... then played blackjack.. till ten.. after that of course is my hse... lolx..

3th dae... went to my uncle hse... ate... sit... talk... n off we went.. lolx.. to PS... wanted to go istana park.. but a lot of ppl.. so we skipped that... went to catch a movie... cheaper by a dozen.. nice show... after movie.. we headed back to my hse... but we reach my hse area around 9... n is far too early.. lolx.. we went to sit down at the playground.. juz foolin around..

was starin into the sky yesterdae nite... was askin heaven... where will my r/s wif dear dear head towards?? i got no idea.. in the past... i believe we will last forever... there will be this dae when we will marry n have our own children... but somehow...that faith is lost... the more quarrels we have.. the more disappointment i have.. honestly.. i took off the ring on sat... cause i felt a great disappointment when i woke up that dae...

heaven nv ans my question... he juz let me remember the past... the past that i once shared wif dear... the first dae we went stead... i met his poly frens.. includin his ex... the first time we hold hands.. was at the blk behind my blk... we juz sat there talkin... me sittin on his leg.. (cause Shiro sat on his leg... lolx...) our first kiss... juz downstair my blk... but things are so different now...

the things n feelins we once shared.. like faded away... sometimes when we quarrel.. i felt that he loved his ex more than he ever love me... when they quarrel... he will be the one givin in.. coaxin her... but for us?? startin he did give in.. but recent... we juz quarrel till i start sayin break up... then he will try to apologise...

dear... dun quarrel wif me over wat i'm bloggin for todae... this is somethin i fear tellin u face to face... u were wif me for the past 3 daes.. i'm sure u sense the different in me.. the feelin is fadin... not juz a little... i dun even believe that we are meant to be now... i dun noe ur feelin... juz to let u noe... our r/s will not be able to last if another quarrel appears... i admit... i am unreasonable n bad temper at times.. i admit.. it always take 2 hands to clap.. if there is somethin wrong wif our r/s... there is somethin that i did wrong too... for that.. i apologise... but then... sometimes... somethings that are broken can nv be mended... u should understand wat i mean...

u guys take care... ciao~
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