back to blog.. yeah.. super rate on a Sunday nite..

a bit late.. but thanks all that came for my little Pan family b-daes celebration.. thanks all for the gift.. appreciate it.. i noe it was veri far and inaccessible.. esp at Changi.. so reali appreciate you guys being there just for us.. :P.. Also, thanks Eva & Sta for helping out that day.. i'll help out on ur b-dae too :P..

life back to work is a bit boring.. getting a bit sian at work le.. cause my seat is like damn disconnected.. seldom interact with anyone.. moreover, while i'm on leave, i handover some work to my colleague.. but after that, the work nv came back.. dun understand why.. but i noe she is over-flooded with work.. just that she refuse to hand it back to me.. hai~ nvm.. big project coming.. i'll be damn busy for next 2-3 wks.. even though i slacked one week.. lolx.. ok.. work wise, everything is fine.. still the same old things.. but yeah, i'm still learning at this stage.. so guess i wun be bored of this job so soon? lolx.. typical me..

Merrick is growing up ever so healthy.. too energetic for me.. lolx.. i'm getting old.. but still stunning.. lolx.. that dae when i go work.. there is this guy that follows me all the way to my office building.. just to ask for my number.. i was like..... lolx.. but that guy nt handsome la.. n his pick up line sux.. i mean if nt handsome, at least pick up line shld be more interesting rite? then got a bit of chance ma.. lolx.. anyway, back to Merrick.. everythin is fine for him in his childcare.. he was sick for abt 3-4 days after being in childcare for one wk.. so he got a 1 wk unoffical break.. lolx.. slacker.. lolx.. but now think he starting to get use to go sch.. nt crying as much as he was in the beginning.. accordingly to mummy, he will say "Don't cry, don't cry" on his way to sch.. lolx.. cause mummy always tell him, "Later go sch cannot cry ok?" lolx.. but in the end, he will sob a bit.. but all it takes is a cartoon programe, he will forget abt his granny.. lolx.. kid... dun understand what's going on in their mind.. lolx..

recently he veri "glued" to me.. every weekend, i must be wherever he is.. out at the living room... inside the bed room.. when he slp, i'm possible to slp too.. lolx.. even when we go gai gai, he must make sure i'm in sight too. so i can't go washroom too many times etc.. if not, he reali scream.. lolx.. as if i'm kidnapped..

my point here is, who says that working mum will not be as close to their children.. i believe, it's the effort you put in.. yes.. i wun be there for his "1st-time" for everything.. but at least, i had tried.. to give ur child a comfortable live, there are choices to be made.. i been through too much.. n i dun wan my darling to go through these as well.. that's why i choose to work.. nt becoz i dun love my son.. i love him more than anyone.. even though i'm fierce to him at times.. but i believe that's a must.. i dun wan him to learn the bad way to behave.. education n manner starts from young.. esp habits.. i'm not the best mum in the world, but i'm learning to be.. unlike most, i dun have the right mum to learn from.. my mummy, since young, she nv makes a good mum.. gamble to her is more important than my safety.. jus becoz she wants to gamble, i got lost once.. so i'm learning by my own.. learning from my imagine "perfect" mum.. so Merrick darling, i hope you will understand this in future..

dear dear promise me a trip to Hk.. he is paying for it.. wahahahaha.. yesh.. a free trip to hk.. hee.. lookin forward to it.. shld be goin in Jan next yr.. still in the plannin stage.. so everythin's too soon to tell yet.. hee.. my schedule for next yr.. Jan - 3D2N hk trip.. Feb - 3D2N Genting trip.. April - 8D7N tw trip.. wahahahaha.. yesh.. i got to strike TOTO b4 i go broke.. lolx..

ok.. i shall end here now.. my only wish for this year now is to get a flat soon.. i want my own flat.. so god, please bless me so that i can get my own floor within this yr.. that's the only thing i lack of now..

nite all..
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