Hi pals, back to blog today...

My uncle in law passed away on Sat morning.. so on leave today to send him off his final journey.. well.. just suddenly feels like blogging...

i'm not reali that close with my uncle in law... he can't speak chinese and i can't reali speak hokkien.. n i'm definitely dun like to shout while talking to elder.. but he got hearing problem and so there is a need to shout.. moreover, i nv reali know what to talk to him abt... anyway, today i'm not reali here to blog abt him... but i reali wish him peace and i believe this is a relieve for him.. he been suffering so much for so long since his last stroke.. hopefully, he will have a better afterlife...

i was just randomly thinkin abt the past recently.. look.. everyone noe i married at the age of 18.. and gave birth at the age of 19.. n i got nth to hide.. i mean, obviously this is not sumthin that one will plan for.. my original plan was to get marry at 28 and nv have children in my life.. lolx.. yesh.. i'm definitely that type of career minded woman amongst thousands of women in Singapore..

i got ppl asking me before why not just abort... i noe what they mean... i was still studying for my diploma.. at that time, still got 1 and a half year to go.. so why go through the pain of pregnant while in sch and invite all the unnesscary stares... but i didn't... and ppl asked me whether do i regret my decision?

life wasn't a bed of roses for me.. frens that knew me, they knew i been through a lot.. even back in Pri and Sec school days.. i wasn't the perfect child one parents will hope to have.. n i aren't the perfect student the teachers would love to teach.. i was a rebellious and at one point of time, even stupid enough to believe all sweet talking shower upon me.. but honestly, my life became so much more better after marriage...

i noe.. ppl wonder... life after marriage, no financial but with kid.. how to survive... but we did.. initially, life was hard.. i can't get whatever i like.. i got to save like no ppl biz... much less to say the stares i gotten while i'm pregnant.. i can literally hear what the hell those ppl thinkin abt.. but no regrets thus far... while ppl my age enjoying their life with the new financial support they found, i was busy making sure that i earn enough for my baby.. while kids my age are partying their nights away, i was busy feeding darling Merrick milk and changing his diaper..

but... today.. i got a family.. a car... a flat (yesh.. i got a flat which will be ready in Aug 2012 =P)... one 3 years old kid.. a loving hubby.. and another baby due in june.. all these... i'm reali proud to say we earned these all by ourselves... the car.. the flat.. the life i'm living now.. no help from either of our parents (financially, of course)... at the age of 21 (going 22), how many ppl can achieve all these? furthermore, if that time i reali chose to abort, i wun know so many frens... frens like Mandy, Joan, Jaime.. my first working experience at UOL... gosh... it's quite a nightmare.. lolx.. but i reali appreciated what i learned there.. and from there, i moved on to my current workplace... and i'm enjoying my worklife now even though i'm super busy with work.. all these.. will not be possible without Merrick.. if i had aborted, i wouldn't had done an internship at UOL.. the period not right.. even if i did, i wouldn't be hired as they won't be short of manpower then..

so my final reply to all, is no.. i never ever regretted my decision.. Getting married.. having Merrick.. these are the best part of my life... i wish all my frens will have such a happy, loving ending in their life too..

will end here today.. take care pals..

tata...
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