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Wednesday, April 21, 2021

 So Year 2020, you sux.. big time..


this year, it has been very difficult.. putting aside COVID, since COVID didn't impact me as much, my whole life was just difficult.. this year, we spent the most time together since everyone has to WFH, HBL for the kiddos. So it's like always at home. True, i miss traveling, we can't fly out due to the shut-down. 


So WFH, it's the new normal. It's quite chill and relax at first.. before anyone turns around and up the pace. Then of course working with the stupid licensor.. reali.. first time out of my 12+ years of working, i see licensor sent black & white approval then flip it.. say 1 month before launch, decided to cancel their approval and demand we rework or cancel event... reali feel like flipping them. wth... and of course, we had a ultra useless middleman who doesnt do his work but expecting to be paid. so work sux big time this year...for a simple campaign, i took 1 year of effort to build and do.. hello.. pls.. we used to do campaign within 3 months leh..


so for personal, Dear and me.. we have been fine.. despite spending more time together, we got closer to each other.. alot more than we ever have.. so what happened was, i lost my grandfather.. my beloved grandfather passed away after fighting the cancer for so long.. i regretted, not visiting him as frequently.. i last saw him in Jul.. and he passed away in Sep.. when it happened, it happened really fast.. within a week, he was gone.. he loved us so much but i kept feeling that i didnt do enough for him.. that guilt is eating me up.. and yet when i keep going to visit my grandma, i realised i can't do much too.. i think maybe all they want is reali just us visiting them, just spending time at the house with them.. thank you, grandpa.. for loving us so much when you were around.. you never were bothered by our surname.. u loved my children as much as you loved me too.. thank you.. i rem how you let me kept a tadpole and it turned into a frog.. how you brought mangosteen for me cause i love it.. today is your birthday, Happy Birthday! i hope you are doing well over there.. i'm sorry for not always being there.. 


shall stop here today... this sort of have become like a secret diary for me.. hahaha.. turning to this page whenever i need to vent.. i think it might take me awhile to recover from the guilt.. to get used to the fact that everytime i go up visit, i no longer can see him.. just cancel 2020 already. i'm already too tired.. 


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